Yesterday was my mom's birthday. We decided her birthday, rather than the anniversary of her passing (March 31, 2007), is the best time to remember her and commemorate her life. This is the second year now that my sisters and I have gone out to eat at her favorite restaurant, The Cracker Barrel, in order to celebrate her and all the goodness she brought to our lives. The waitress reminded us a lot of Mother. She was extremely friendly and offered far too much personal information. Afterwards we went to Mom's grave to wish her a happy birthday. It was a short visit because it was very cold and we had two little babes in tow.
I miss her so much. For some reason, I don't know if is it the season change, the upcoming holidays, or the fact that I am not so overwhelmed with being pregnant and having a new baby, but lately I've really had a difficult time not having her around. I've truly noticed an absence in my life. I think I will need to make another trip to her grave again soon, one where I am alone and can let all my emotions out.
Happy birthday to you Mom. You were one of a kind! You are deeply loved and deeply missed. I look forward to the day when I can once again see you and hug you.